Today I can say I’m good, content and on the plus side of ups and downs
I’m thinking of playing piano, even though my hands are slowing down, losing speed and reach, the occasional klinker.
i slept hard, the result of 3 trazodone and mirtazapine and morphine. woke up in pain and now 3 hours later I am so tired I can hardly sit up.
I’m ignoring it.
But can’t.
The source of my frustration, pain. As I finally come to some sort of realization, acceptance of whom I am really, I feel like living more. Not longer, but more. Change the balance.
You can understand if you’ve been pulled down…that’s a good way to put it.
Pulled down by pain or depression or others working their own agendas. Life.
Today I’m pulling back.
I only wish I had more good hours.