treatment Archives - The Queer KYD

March 18, 2026May 9, 2026

Frustration and the Inability to Heal

I’m overly frustrated today, as I find myself exhausted and down. A funk has set in, the shadow of a cloud is once again hanging over my head. Maybe it’s a reaction to lack of sleep for the next two nights, as restless legs have been keeping me up until 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning before I finally fall asleep. My body aches, but at least I’m not sick, meaning my gut seems fine.

Mrs. Kyd has been traveling, and during our nightly call I told her I could feel my depression coming on and that I was feeling down for no specific reason. Is it this unbearable lengthy winter we’re experiencing, or the loneliness I go through when she’s traveling? I don’t think so. Seasonal Affective Disorder? Hmmm…it certainly plays a role, but don’t think it would cause such ups and downs.

June 13, 2025June 29, 2025

Ketamine ketamine ketamine

I wrote that out three times in the title because eventually I will have all three “bad” experiences written down. Three out of a couple dozen isn’t bad. Not true, one bad trip is enough to stop the treatment altogether. Having 20 plus treatments with Ketamine for PTSD and depression qualifies me as an expert though.. Kidding, kinda.

May 13, 2025May 23, 2025

The Three Appointments

Today is like most days. We head from winter to summer and the weather has turned. Bright, sunny and 70 degrees. Great day for yard work or better yet fishing.

Of course I’m in an Uber heading to a hospital to see the eye surgeon. I hope for the last time. The gas bubble is gone and I have about 50% of my sight restored.

Good time to write, the occasional pot hole creating typos along the way. Will require a rewrite and edit but that’s the normal course of action, no matter how or where written.

April 1, 2025May 22, 2025

Abilify, personal experience

I’m going to give my opinion and views on the various types of drug treatments I’ve been prescribed in order to deal with PTSD and depression. In actuality, the drugs have all been prescribed for depression only. Can you suffer from PTSD without depression? Good question, but in my case the answer is no.

In no way shape or form do the doses apply to the reader or anyone else. Since they are all prescribed you need to work with a doctor. I’m just writing on how they affected my journey.

March 10, 2025May 22, 2025

Meds, meds and more…you get the drift.

I find myself in a spider web of doctors, and a cornucopia of medications, all prescribed of course. Except for the marijuana, cannabis if you like. But since one doc told me Health Canada would rather you get high than have an opioid, I take that as a medical blessing.

It’s a lot of medication targeted at one specific problem area or to treat a side effect caused by the rest of the meds. A different prescription for a different symptom. Some are simply handed down by doctor to doctor for issues that no longer exist.

March 3, 2025May 22, 2025

EMDR PART 2: The bad part

I’ve written previously about EMDR and the type of treatment I personally went through in my EMDR Part 1: Positive…or pure hell.

As a refresher I considered it an attempt at hypnosis, a re-wiring of the trauma event through remembering what exactly happened, at least your perception at the time. Those deep seeded memories that haunt you. Then the therapist helps you by re-visiting those events and minimizing the psychological impact and the prevalence of PTSD symptoms.

That’s my thinking anyway, if I try to capture it in a nutshell.

February 16, 2025May 22, 2025

EMDR: Positive…or pure hell. Post 1

EMDR is short for Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. That’s a mouthful in itself, EMDR is much easier. The best I can describe from my experience is that it is very similar to hypnosis.

In a nutshell the therapy is intended to have you review the traumatic event in baby steps and process your thinking of what actually happened and how you react to it.

I can only relate my own experience and to be truthful it had a horribly negative effect.

February 2, 2025May 22, 2025

Traumatic childhood events

There are a myriad of causes or potential situations that can be traumatic in a child’s life. Those events in a child’s life that might leave a deep enough wound or scar to trigger PTSD, and the symptoms as described in the DSM V.

I write about childhood trauma probably because I’m still angry over my parents inability to see the signs and symptoms that something was deeply wrong with myself. They simply didn’t catch it.

The information below is from the National Child Traumatic Stress Network.

January 26, 2025May 21, 2025

PTSD – suggested treatment options

Here’s the list of currently available treatments recommended by the American Psychology Association, the approved methods of correcting or managing the illness to reduce symptoms of PTSD.

I’ve included the full link below, I simply wanted to share the fact that the types of treatments recommended are seemingly non-ending. *not a doctor!

I’ve simplified the list for ease of reading, but have included the Abstract below.

January 25, 2025May 21, 2025

INTRO TO CBT

I’ve been doing some initial research into Cognitive Behavior Therapy, aka CBT.

It seems the primary goal is to rewrite the memories of the traumatic event, and as a result rewire the defective part of the brain. It works on connecting your thoughts to your feelings and in turn your actions so you can understand how you end up spiraling and ending up in depressive episodes.

In theory.