symptoms Archives - The Queer KYD

April 4, 2025October 20, 2025

The Nightmare

I refer to “The Nightmare” throughout my discussions on PTSD. The whole insomnia, pain and depression triangle of evil are fueled by each other, a synergistic effect where 1+1+1 = 5, not 3. The symptoms of one being the result or cause of the other. Like nightmares, or night sweats, or flashbacks.

Insomnia has plagued me for a long time, but in the last 5 years has taken on a whole life of its own. My physical pain has joined forces with the mental anguish. The old cure for lack of sleep is a simple night of drinking heavily. But everyone knows a good night’s sleep from being drunk isn’t a good night’s sleep at all.

February 12, 2025May 21, 2025

Missing the signs: parental intervention

I don’t know how to phrase this, but after enduring 60 years of…what?…life? I’m finding myself angry, disappointed. Not surprising, the anger that is. SARA…Shock Anger Rejection Acceptance. If those are the stages of trauma I’m still stuck in stage 2.

I hate to even go down half these paths in fear of sounding like a whiner. But I’m angry.

Somebody could have helped me a long time ago, my parents is a good place to start.

January 20, 2025May 21, 2025

RLS and Insomnia; another night

It’s 1:04 am according to this iPad, and I just came back from going upstairs to get a rotigotine patch to stop the RLS from driving me mental. Too late, I’m afraid. Restless Leg Syndrome. My theory is it’s all tied to stress and PTSD.

I turned off the television in the master bedroom, thinking my wife was asleep. She was listening to the news, she said, from under the covers.

I head back downstairs where I can pace without waking the dogs. Walking is about the only way to keep the legs from kicking.

January 13, 2025May 22, 2025

PTSD and Me

So this is the easiest way for me to demonstrate the effect of PTSD on me, and which of the criteria I have experienced.

My qualifications so to speak.

If you’ve taken the time to read through each description, you need to tick X amount of boxes for each of the criteria listed below. Some criteria require one exhibited attribute, some two or more.

December 15, 2024May 21, 2025

PTSD: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Not surprisingly, the outline for the blog made sense to me at the time, but as I learn more about myself through research the more I find the emphasis shifting. A change in the level of importance, revisions to the rank.

Ranking them has been difficult, but if I divide the key topics of Mental Illness into Diagnosis (ever changing) Symptoms and Treatments I think I can get my mind around this.

So let’s start with the latest diagnosis stemming from my ordeal with the new psychiatrists.