Month: November 2025

Or is that the other way around, perhaps the bad with the good? Either way life has its ups and downs, I just happen to have more of the latter. I could give up and give in, but can’t. Not yet anyway.

The other morning I woke up early, when the missus was out of town for a few days on business. She left only after I reassured her I would be okay and could look after the three of us. At least the dogs would be fine.

I’d been bedridden for the last 6 days. Apparently I’ve developed a serious food allergy of some kind, but we have yet to figure out what exactly. We’re narrowing it down to pork, seafood, and/or a variety of spices. Okay, that’s not too narrow. This is the second time in 2 months this has occurred. It takes a full week until I feel half way normal, a full week of hell. In the last 40 days I’ve spent 18 in bed. Most of those I couldn’t even manage feeding the dogs.

I’m having a real tough time of it. Real tough. So bad I can’t hardly explain it. My body is directing the show, being bedridden for 20 days out of the last 45 days So sick all I can do is lie in bed, my mind not able to focus on even the smallest task. I turn on the TV for 24 hours to try to drown out the pain. Doesn’t work.

Thank god I have a woman who loves me deeply for some damn reason. She does nothing but care for me. And my two dogs, my only real friends. I know I’m lucky, and I fall more in love with her every day. Love has no boundaries right?

The only thing I manage to do is sit at the piano. Music never stops playing in my head, my own personal background music that only I can hear. Continuous, but no one else’s songs but my own. Something I’ve written and it’s stuck in my head. Sometimes I wish it would stop, but glad it never does.