That sums it up, basically I really have no idea what I’m doing writing a blog. But I have to remember who the intended target audience is…me…and what the desired end results are described below.
Should I be following a set format for bloggers? How to write a post that’s catchy and fun and keeps the reader’s attention? Engaging enough for them to follow along with the story? Click a link here or there maybe?
Or maybe don’t even bother and write what I feel at the time. Even if those feelings are negative and downbeat, those are the most important times to write I think. Capture the bad moments along with the good, if any, and maybe I can reduce the negative thoughts in general, to an acceptable level. I need to look for the patterns and identify those times when I’m starting to slip further down the rabbit hole.
I need to remember this is nothing more than a daily journal, that may or may not be written every day, but I will try to keep up. But like everyone else, my best intentions to set a time aside to research and write is always eaten into by others…or two dogs. Plus I’m finding a single page takes a bit of effort, more than a bit of effort actually.
Remember, and this is important.
I’m trying to do three things with this blog. One is to understand how the pieces of my life were affected by a single traumatic event and two is to accept the fact that for all that happened I did okay. I hope to shift the focus to the positive history, rather than regret the life I led.
Third and most importantly give up on wondering who I would have become, as that question can never be answered. Accept, park it, and move on.
Time to let go.