Abilify. An anti-psychotic that is used for chronic depression, with suicidal ideation.
It‘s odd how the spell checker keeps changing it into “Ability”.
Not odd…profound. Why? The drug has reduced my thoughts of suicide and depression quite well, and replaced it with a numbing apathy about everything.
I can’t cry or go down the rabbit hole.
But I can’t laugh, or write or play piano or get excited about anything.
No Ability. or capability.
I think I would rather be sad and depressed than feel nothing. If there was ever a reason to die…